Blogging

Dear Blog,

Was having my regular talk with my bestie the other day, and the topic of my blog came up. She says sometimes when she reads my blog, it just feels so real.

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I must be too convincing with my emo talk.

Yeah I won't deny that those emo blogs are genuine feelings, but I don't normally sit and marinate in it like a lamb chop in the fridge for days and days, though there are people who think so.

People also tell me, they never see me mad. I've been getting these comments since I was in high school, believe it or not cause I can't.

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Maybe that's why I'm scared shitless of getting into another relationship at the moment. I really can't trust myself to not go back to the funk of being the uncool, unhappy, overanalysing self. Looking back, I'm wondering how in hell did I let myself get that way?

In front of the world I may appear to be this outgoing, devil-may-care, happy girl. But behind the facade is the same average woman. The insecurities, the anxieties, the sensitiveness, the overanalysing, the outrageous expectations, the lack of patience, it's all the same.

At this very point, I am the same girl on the outside and on the inside, the happy one. And I want to keep it that way.

May